Hayley, I am Sorry…
I have to say I am sorry for being MIA for the past little while. We have had some big stressors going on at home and in my life.
We live in an apartment building and I recently found out that other apartments in the build on the other side and on different floors have some unwanted visitors. This is hard for me to say because I feel there is a such a negative stigma but I am going to share. 2 Apartments on the 3rd and 4th floor have bed bugs. From what I have read and been told (as I can not look at those website without beginning to have an anxiety attack) is that this is very common right now across North America. None the less I feel uncomfortable in my home.
My landlord has informed us that we do not have them. Which has eased my mind slightly although I still worry. That’s what I do. I have not been posting because I have been home very little.
Also, this week (Wednesday) I had a Colonoscopy and an Endoscopy which was a HORRIBLE experience. The doctors are still trying to figure out what causes the horrid pain I have every so often and why I have to go to the bathroom so frequently. I have to Thank Ellie for being there for me and for making me soup when she brought me home!!
Yet I am feeling a bit better, and I am looking forward to sharing more of my successes…
I have been going to the gym regularly as well… more on that to come!
This is an apology to myself for letting my demons get the best of me. I am a clean and healthy happy person. For a couple weeks I did not feel that way. From time to time you may see more of these posts. Its a way for me to address my inner concerns and get to the root of my problem.
How do you cope with stressors? Do you keep a journal?? Are you willing to share your weakness??
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Sorry to hear you’ve been having a rough time. I hear about bed bugs on the news all the time and living in an apartment building, it’s a huge stressor for me. I panic at the thought of it. That along with silly people who do silly things that cause fires. Yup, i panic that other people will do something like leave their iron on, or forget a pot on the stove! It’s brutal but I have to calm myself and try to put it out of my mind.
Hope you get things sorted out and some answers from your dr soon. Have they mentioned IBS? I went through a battery of tests before they determined that’s what I have.
Take care of yourself!
Thank you. The doctors had said IBS in the beginning but because the upset bowels are accompanied by pain they do not think its that. We will see… my next apt is in December